See You Later...Not Goodbye

It's been six months since the day we met Braelyn.  It's been six months since the day we lost Braelyn.  Six months... Half of a year...

Seems like the past six months have flown by.  I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing that time is going so fast.  Some days I feel like it just happened yesterday...but some days I feel like it's all slipping out of my memory.  I am forgetting what it felt like to have her in my hands because I only held her for a few hours.  But I can remember how much I loved her.  I am forgetting what it felt like to have her tiny hand wrapped around my little finger.  But I can remember how my life changed the moment I saw her.

I don't know if I believe the saying that "time heals all wounds".  I still feel the same sadness every day, the same exact sadness I felt on October 7 at 2:25 p.m.  I guess over time you just learn to live your life around the sad feeling you carry, but I don't know if it'll ever go away.  Don't get me wrong, I don't believe in sitting around crying and sulking all day, but the thoughts of Braelyn are never out of my mind.  For now, I am focusing on being positive and looking towards the future with hope that good things are to come for Matt and I.

I feel strongly that I didn't say goodbye to Braelyn, I just said see you later.  So now I need to keep living my life in a way that will make that a reality some day.  We love you and miss you every single day, Braelyn!